the BFF

This time my brother was at the other end of the line, he was listening to my recent encounter with Arnold. And yes, I already told him Arnold’s name. Good thing they weren’t friends. Although he knows him. Still it gives me some air to breathe.

Unbelievably, my brother is calm. Was it because he knows Arnold?

“I told you his mom and every body else likes you. The guy wants to rearrange some rules, and you better be prepared.” But I’m not. There’s no way that I’m going to give it a shot. Besides, I don’t want to complicate things.

“Can you control it? After these, according to you, AMAZEMENT? If his mom like our mom gets that amazed and eventually HE became her new Best friend Forever, would you control it? Could you??” I don’t know but I certainly don’t wanna go through it. Mom like dad is a very hard nut to crack. Besides, she like me wouldn’t consider this as an option or something. We know very well that I seek freedom with every effort and you know quite frankly how I tried to emphasize that on our family. Lastly, I don’t want to lose their trust, even your trust.

And I really want to defend myself in this. When I talked to his mom, I never intended anything of this. NEVER! And it wasn’t as if I dreamt of this thing. Perhaps, she – his mom, thinks that I am something whom I’m not. I was just being nice. And I thought I was just doing the right thing. But now, I don’t know. It’s just four months. Arnold and I are never gonna be a couple after 4 months. Besides, it’s not just him who should set rules! I live in the house too. I get to pay the house with so little that I can. I know I have to relay this to him.

“HEY. It’s not as if you’re going to do it purposely. Besides haven’t you thought about these? The very possibility of moving on from Brenth.” Oh Brother. Give me a break. Let’s not start with Brenth. It’s over. And Arnold and I, our relationship? It’s never gonna be like that. HECK. We don’t even have a relationship to start with. We’re just friends. And I don’t want to live a lie.

“I told you, you’ve got a huge shoes to fill.”