He confronted me

Hey, listen. I know that you’re quite tired after working for hours and doing your stuffs.. but I think we need to talk.

“Hana, it’s 2:50 in the morning. I guess we better sleep more than talk. Besides, there are few days to go and we can talk about it on weekends. Just not now Sarah. I mean.. Hana.”

So.. she was Sarah. What a chick flick.

No I think we should talk about it now. I.. I.. I cannot put myself altogether but I’m doing my thing with the greatest effort that I can exert. I think we should stop fooling your family.

“What?” I think it’s best if we forget about the plan.

“What are you talking about? My mom is really fond of you and so with my sisters, my dad and everybody else…” That’s it! I am putting an end to these because there are a lot of people involved already. And.. and I don’t want to engrave much pain on them than I do.

“What are you talking about Hana? They wouldn’t know. It’s clear. We’ve already talk about this, and we …” No. Arnold I think everything has got to have an end. We cannot go on acting something we are not. Besides I think it’s better if we try to break this to your family as early as now. Please, don’t keep their hopes up for nothing.

“And what do you know, Hana? What is bothering you all along that makes you this bothered to open up at pass two o’clock in the morning?”

I saw you. I saw you with… I saw you with her.

“Who Hana? Who did you saw me with? And why are you acting this strange?”

I saw you with your girl. I saw you with Sarah. I didn’t mean to. [ As I was trying my best to crack the story to him, I wasn’t aware that I was shaking and crying while blabbing what I saw. ] But I cannot stop myself from staring. I mean.. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop as I watch you two. I was just trying to confirm if it’s you whom I saw. And as I confirmed, the words kept floating in the air and the stabs are getting deeper.

“What are you talking about, Hana? Why are you getting hurt? When you know that what we are doing for my family is just nothing. It should be nothing to us. It should be nothing to you when they are not here, like it’s nothing to me when they aren’t here.”

I.. I don’t know. I actually don’t know why. Why I’m getting hurt, Why now it means something when it shouldn’t be, and why am I affected when I heard it straight from you that everything was nothing. That those were just acts pulled together to come up with a scene to your family.

And perhaps that’s the reason why I want everything to stop. Because you’re not only fooling your family. And as the play continues every act is hard to separate from reality. I hate to break this words for you to hear at 3 o’clock in the morning, but my heart beats for you. And as much as I want to stop myself from feeling this, I cannot because this are voluntary actions.

As much as I heard those harsh words, apart from witnessing everything there is to witness. I guess, it’s better if we stop playing these roles and move on to our separate lives. I cannot act for you anymore. I am not sorry, I wish you are but even if you are, you cannot change my heart nor my mind. Good night Arnold.