The mature argument

When the visitors were finally gone, I was confronted by another of Arnold’s argument.

“Why did you let him do that?”

“What? Am I not entitled to do my own thing? Make my own decision to whom should and shouldn’t become a part of my life? What’s wrong with you?”

“I am not in question for your decision. What I am concerned about is that you are letting him intrude our privacy. Hana, he is my no. 1 enemy back in elementary. A rival. And I don’t want anymore rivals. Not now. I don’t want him to like you that way. Because in 4 months, I realized that I like you more that I knew myself that I could like a girl this way.”

“Another crap. Now Arnold you are getting in to my nerves. Ever heard of ‘when someone comes to your life, another someone is going to bade good bye?’ And if I am not in the mood I might choose you to be the one to leave my life. You know how crazy I am about you. You knew it when I blurted out how I felt about you.

“Do you know how hurt I felt when you said these harsh words?

“What are you talking about, Hana? Why are you getting hurt? When you know that what we are doing for my family is just nothing. It should be nothing to us. It should be nothing to you when they are not here, like it’s nothing to me when they aren’t here.”

“It’s just full of crap Arnold. You dumped me like I was just something you crank and wind. You took me for granted. Those piercing words was more than I could comprehend and it’s all because of this. How you’ve hurt me, made me seek my brother. And my brother came up with a silly pattern of ideas. He set me up to different dates. Dates! For heaven’s sake! If I didn’t sound desperate enough.

“When I met my elementary classmates after 10 years, it was nostalgic but it was the maddest idea that my brother came up with. To get even with how I met you. For me to lessen the get to know part. He started with Krees, whose masterpieces’ were according to you not suited for the motif of the house.

“Then I had tons, not successful. So he seek his best man, the person you and I hate the most, Timmy. The man behind these things. It was difficult for me to accept the fact that he was my brother’s best friend. And he was the least person that I want to date. And yet, I ended up being set up with him. I learned that he asked my brother to be the next option. And as shock as we were when we first saw him outside the garage, I was as paranoid as you. I never thought he’ll be the one.

“So, now that everything that used to be just something to make me recover made it more complicated, Timmy for the generalization is now a part of my life. You know now that you are a part of my blissful world. But still it doesn’t make you something. Since I was able to recall all the hurtful things.

“Yes, what am I talking about Arnold? Why was I hurt and hurting? Are you hurting too? Does this matter? Do you have the right to tell me how you feel after all these things you put me through? This started as your pretentious family crap and now look where we are right now? ‘It should be nothing to you when they are not here, like it’s nothing to me when they aren’t here.’ Right. It’s nothing Arnold. Nothing.

“And you telling me you like me is pointless.”

“So.. this is all about how affected you were? This is all about me and you. This dating started because of what I said that hurt you. Well, Hana, collecting the guts to tell you how I feel was never easy for me, but still I did for you. I didn’t know that these was all about the past arguments, and I am sorry. Still, I like you. And Hana, please forgive me.”

“Okay. I will. But please spare us the trouble of everything. Let go of your rivalry. For the nth time, Arnold be the one who will initiate the growing-up part. Timmy is quite stubborn, so it’s unlikely for him to start. And please don’t EVER think that I am asking this favor for you because he matters to me now. This friendship thing that we have, and the friendship thing that is about to blossom between Timmy and I is new to me. So, spare the trouble of more arguments.”

“I know more of the mature part. But letting Timmy spend his sweet time with you, is torment for me.”

“I don’t know. It’s the price you have to pay for hurting me, though. Besides, you’ve got the edge and Timmy is just starting his share. I’m not a price nor a possession so spare me too! And for all it’s worth, we are just friends.”

“For now yes. But what about next next next next month?”

“Arnold… stop. You know better than that. If you don’t wanna be friends with him, I can understand but please if you can bear, give him a chance. This is not about rivalry and this is not about who wins or who lose. This is not about who will be able to make me happy, you make me happy. And if he can make me, then it makes you two. You know better.”