I miss my family so much

When my mom called me early this afternoon, she was too anxious about me. Upon hearing from Hero about how I went through with the previous events in my life, she suddenly came up with the idea that I have to go back home. To freshen up and be with them like old times sake.

But she knows me better. I will never go back home because of this. It’s just that I have a lot of things to prove to myself. I want to be stronger and more resilient. I know I can do this and I can be a better person.

But don’t get me wrong. There’s nothing wrong with going home. It’s just that I am not into it. Because there’s really no home to go back to.

Hero is living in his pad and he doesn’t want his family to barge in, even his mom, because according to him it’s a “guy thing.”

My mom is still working in different provinces across the country. Her medical missions are more important to her than a house in Manila. Her children want an independent life, and she is cool with it.

My dad, on the other hand, is still working in Canada, still a doctor and saving Canadian Dollars for our family. He is working his way to being a Canadian citizen and he really wants us to move along with him. But we know better. We just can’t do that, even if he wants to.

His children, Hero and Hana, want a simple life in the Philippines.

“We have different dreams, dad. Hero doesn’t want to get married yet. For Pete’s sake! He’s only.. what? 23? Dad. Kids can wait.”

Our Dad was blabbing already. Too anxious to have grandchildren. And there was silence.

Then a long pause.

“No dad! Of course not! I’m sure. Hero will have his kids before I bear one! And you know how I hate kids. They are energy suckers. Drain boosters and stuff. Oh men, why are we talking about this dad? Too soon.”

Did I just say that my dad is not an average dad? Ha! Ha! He’s eager to have grandchildren even if his son is only at his early 20s. And he is a little bit concerned about me getting pregnant before Hero gets married. And the buzz? Hmmm..

I told you through my previous posts that Hero is one hell of a big mouthed brother. No secrets can be kept when he is around. And with that, my dad also learned about what happened between me and Timmy.

“Don’t worry about me. I’ve got things sorted out. I won’t leave this house. And I will not date yet. I promise, I can take care of myself. I’ll be more careful. I still work hard, though because I want to buy you guys a house to stay. I miss my family so much.”

Dad is already teary eyed on the phone, so I know that I’ve got to stop. Few more chitchat and we had to say our final goodbyes. I guess, my dad looks kinda funny being in the hallway of the hospital as a doctor and a father at the same time.

I really miss them so much.