It might have sound as if I didn't know that something's gonna happen. But I actually know that one of my friends was actually planning this. Since the planned date and the ending that eventually brought me here.. Enyah, Hero, Arnold and Caroline were being too friendly-too concerned to me, that it kinda makes me feel like I'm being such a loser for accepting what happened to Timmy and I.
It's over 8 months and the common stalker who keeps on bugging me hasn't recognized me for the whole 3 months. I bet he was just kidding around because he has seen Enyah a couple of times and they were sharing the same stare.
“Those stares are bugging me. I know it's fake. I can sense that Enyah has something to do with this. Like, do you ever see her share the stare with the matching smile?”
I can't help it. Either way I have to let both of them know that I am not THAT stupid.
It's kinda bugging me to see them do that. It makes me feel like I'm not half the girl that I thought I was.
Do you even know what sucks? It's the fact that I actually knew it, but still I tolerate them while they keep on playing their part. All these time, I was looking through the things in black n white, until it came to me that my friend was really a part of this.
She was the one behind everything. I don't know. I actually don't understand her. Why would she do this stuff? Like, at first she made me fell for her brother and eventually she made us split up. Not that my bitterness was bygone by the wind, but because she was making another shit on me. Now, she is doing this to play with my feelings again through Bryyan.
And poor stupid Bryyan don't know a thing.
Enyah is sick, I know and I feel her. But I don't get her being all too bad and good at the same time. What is with me that she keeps on shitting about? For goddamn sake, I have been keeping my silence since her brother decided to not show up and not even leave some traces. And I don't even want to hunt him until I hear him say that he doesn't want me anymore, so I just let him be.
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