Watermark

Yes, I would love to be there and hug you. Once again, or for the last time. But we know that a lot has changed. You have your own set of friends, and I am still stuck with our old friends. Well, there’s nothing wrong with our old friends, in fact, I really appreciate that we still have each other despite the time. But sometimes, you seem to be way too far to reach that us, your old friends, don’t feel much comfort when you’re near.

With you feeling these things alone and I can’t even reach out to touch you, I feel so even more helpless.

We were in speaking terms once again after quite some time, and I admit that I really missed it so much. After 2 weeks of not hearing anything from you, I learned from your aunt and my boss that you’re going to Canada for a long vacation. You never mentioned anything when we were still together, and boom! You’re gone.

It was like I was left alone in something that you almost let me in to join you, next thing I know you’re at the other side of the world and doing your stuff without even bothering to inform me.

It’s not actually feeling left-out. It’s more of betrayal of trust. It’s like us, bonding once again – felt like the old days which made me believe that it’s one way of catching up and we’ll be able to continue everything from where we left off. Only to find out that it’s a onetime big time scam!

From then on, it feels like I just dreamt of being with you and spending time with you. Yes, like you never really existed, only in my dreams, only in my thoughts but never really belonging to my now life.